Dear Jackson,

Inside my heart is a war, besides the hurt is a wall that resides very deep feelings for you, it’s the place I invite the needing you in every way, it’s the taste of your kiss that i miss, its like driving on a freeway with no cars, its like am searching for a leeway but the scars keep holding me back…

I know that its you i love, but NO, I keep running away from you, why do i keep turning my back against you? Maybe it’s because i keep packing my bags after our arguments, maybe i need to augment my fear with trust, so that i can adhere to us and finally fight to win this war…

I wanted to talk to you that night when you left but was afraid you wouldn’t hear me out, so i stared at the ceiling till morning praying that you would call to seal the space but in vain! I strain thinking about you too much since you left, maybe i have been trained by my heart that it wasn’t accidental that we met, please come back…

Deranged lover.